
In my fourth relationship Since Gaban, (I really don’t have A good track record) I found myself, Unknowingly, Under huge amounts of pressure Worrying about this man I’d taken on When really it was all with him, Nothing to do with me. I’d fallen into a familiar pattern Of worrying about money. His concerns, not mine. I took it on though, It wasn’t forced on me. I cared beyond all measure And in the process sadly My body took the strain. My right eye buckled With inflammation Loss of vision. A repeat of problems to the left Some twelve years before. The year 2000 (six months before Gaban died) Leaving me with partial vision In the left, But thankfully The right was less severe. The outcome though The diagnosis I’d feared The neurologist Gave me the news, Multiple sclerosis. A turning point A time for change Time to take stock And re-evaluate. It was a shock And hard to assimilate But there always is A silver lining This I truly believe. My eyesight is good Together both eyes work well And for this I am so grateful. The DVLA I had to tell. But this year For the third time, I’ve had my licence renewed For three more years. A day of joy and celebration! A new direction I have found With my health And self-care regime. My only aberration Is doing too much And suffering overwhelm! It’s a hard lesson to learn! It’s six years now Since that turning point And it hasn’t always been easy. I did what I always do In these situations, I read about my condition. Changed my diet, Cut out (well down) on alcohol Apparently, it’s really bad For the nervous system! I don’t wear the label, I look after me: Have healing sessions Reiki, Bowen, Reflexology A regular massage Are all part of my regime, With one overriding obsession … To stay well Stay healthy Stay driving Avoid stress Enjoy life Appreciate Be grateful Be loving And SEE the world around me. © Gill Tembo July 2019