I never thought this day would come My book all finished and complete. There were times The road ahead Seemed long and weary Full of doubts, Questions, Incomplete. I worked in secret Not owning up Hoping one day I'd get here, But hardly daring To believe. I’d be working well Then something Stopped me in my tracks An interruption To the flow Hard to get going Again. Then, I’d start … Then something else Would happen… And ... So it went on. A never-ending journey Long and twisty Up and down That I meandered through Feelings and emotions All related To losing you. You who suggested I write in the first place Then never stayed Around For this day to come. It’s funny then People appear On the horizon Just when they're needed To help and push you on. Just when you’re ready. A person did appear For me In January Twenty Eighteen Giving me the impetus, The structure and the meaning To help me move on. Knowing by then, The book I had to finish To allow me to move on. The conviction became clear In my heart and my being An immovable need That need To push on. I worked and worked and worked! This time … No distractions, Total focus Purpose and commitment. The book structured, Chapters added, I edited and edited. I wrote the contents page, Acknowledgements And finally, The Epilogue And by the end of August Twenty Eighteen I thought I was done! How little did I know! How inexperienced, Naive! Because ... In Twenty Nineteen I edited some more Read and read and read the book Over and over. But in the reading And repeating And repeating of the story, As a wise person told me, The emotional charge Rose to the heavens Dissipated and let go, Till I could read it With very little sadness. and no more tears. Just a feeling in my heart Of gratitude and joy To have known you Gaban . How wonderful now To share your story, Our story … With family and friends And people from afar. And I know you know That I know It is now time to move on. © Gill Tembo, September 2019 Written as I finished the editing of 'Life and Love in Africa: my journey to Zambia, Nigeria and back' published in 2019 by New Generation Publishing.